Finally...

Big week here for the Lambler wedding planners!

Let me give you a breakdown of the weekend.  We started off on Saturday, where Donna Sarah and I trekked into Boston (which at this point has about 8 feet of snow). Donna thought it would be easier to take the train, well it wasn't. We were about 40 minutes late for our appointment, and this was one appointment we should NOT have been late to.

Luckily, they were still able to take us. I'll spare y’all the story and drama to share that I FINALLY FOUND A DRESS!  

Now imagine a full marching band-- lights, sparklers,fireworks, the whole deal. Something Just shy of Katy Perry's half time performance. That image was happening in Donna's head! She was relieved that we finally made a decision. Her tears lasted no longer than 3 seconds before she went right back to calibration mode. Sarah said “Ugh finally we don't have to shop any more.”.  This sigh of relief will be short lived, I'm changing a few (60%) of the dress once is comes in. Yeah I know, I’m crazy.

It took 7 different bridal salons, close to 70 different dresses to finally find the one (after the changes).  We had made a tradition of getting drinks after each shopping trip. This was probably because they were so annoyed, aggravated and exhausted. This time, when we should actually be celebrating, we couldn't. We had another meeting back at home. A 1/2 hour late for meeting number two, Matt and I finally met Maura, our wedding coordinator. No, she's not a wedding planner we hired, she's the event manager for the venue. She's taking care of all the details from arrival time to set up, cocktail hour and break down. Without her I would be lost.

Because we were running late, Tiger and Matt were there waiting for us. Maura wanted to start the meeting, so she asked the boys a question, they didn't know. Another… they had no idea. So when she asked a third question and they both looked at her blank faced she changed the subject to the weather. We got a little reality slap. She asked questions I hadn't even begun to think about! After the meeting Donna, Tiger, Matt and I went to dinner. I ordered a much needed bourbon neat.

The next day, hungover and unshowered, Sarah Jean dragged me to another bridesmaids boutique. She wanted to make sure she loved the one she picked out a month ago. So there I was, confusing myself with color swatches and brands yet again. The idea behind the bridesmaids dresses should have stayed and idea. I have made it more complicated than ever. I sprawled out on the boutique floor mixing and matching color cards, prices, fabric and brands. My "fashion forward" vision is nothing but crazy. Sarah and I spent an hour and a half looking over colors that I had seen for months. We finally came to a conclusion and now, it's done!

I found a dress, realized I am not ready for this wedding, had a breakdown, finalized the bridesmaids colors, went to our friends 30th birthday party, saw another best friends new baby girl, had a belated birthday dinner for my grandfather, Matt and Donna, all in time to make it back to NY for work monday.

-Ash

Cracking down on the 'TO DO' list???

I know it has been a while since I have written a blog so let me refresh your minds (for those out there who care).

We are T-8 months away. According to ‘The Knot’ I should have: Save the Dates, Check. Hired a photographer/videographer, check. Booked my band, old news. Reserve a block of rooms, Check. Talk to travel agent, Check. Choose invitations, nope. Meet with Caterers, nope. Finish registry, haven’t started.  And lastly, order my dress and yeah that hasn’t happened.

My bridesmaids are awesome, organized, and cooperative! Over Christmas break they came shopping, saw a mini meltdown, and oh yeah got their shit together. They are all on track and almost ready to order their dresses. I on the other hand, have tried on what feels like 700+ dresses.

 
 
I’m going to let all of you in on a wonderful little secret! My cousin’s wife Danielle told me about a friend of hers who started a staging rental company geared towards weddings. When she sent the link I was floored by her creativity and designs. What an amazing idea! Aneta Amoroso is an outdoor wedding god!
When I say she is saving my family and friends a Summer full of arts and crafts, wood building and painting, I mean it! She has absolutely everything I want. No thrift shops, no Marshalls runs, and no AC Moore crafts.  We rent her pieces, set them up and that’s it! For any of you vintage, rustic, DIY brides, book her now!

Yes it is a little trendy but so were puffy sleeves and wedding hats in the 80’s. I really hate giving out “my” little secrets, but she is too good not to share.  

-Ash

The KNOT…. on my do NOT list!

This is real!

The knot, a popular online wedding planner designed to create stress, loves to send weekly updates. Whenever I see “The Knot” in my email I immediately cringe. Its a reminder of how many days until the wedding and what I have yet to do.  

Anyway, recently we have decided on the rest of the BIG things. We only have to give them our first born. We have ordered the save-the dates and got the hotels together well, kinda.  Anyone who has a large percentage of guests traveling for a wedding be sure to reserve your hotels early. Salem is no vacation hot spot, so we figured there would be no problem getting room blocks, well we were wrong!

Looking back and reading the first few blogs, I had a different idea of how wedding planning would be. I thought it would be this fun exciting time because  I am easy going, try not to stress, and can be creative. NOW, when any newly engaged couple ask about wedding planning I point blank tell them to elope. I know weddings are expensive and stressful but not like this! Honestly by the end of it I will owe vendors my life, kids, and limbs.  

Any couple who tries to recreate a pinterest idea make sure you have a back up! We were recently taking pictures for our Save-the Date. We think our dog is the best thing in the world, and that spoiled brat is much better to look at than Matt and I. So we decided to get creative. We originally wanted Lincoln to sit in front of us, with a bowtie and a save the date sign. That didn't exactly happen. This wack job dog is more excited about being outside playing with his ball and chasing anything that flies, than he is to sit, even for a second. Sarah, my sister was helping us recreate this Pinterest image. Holding the ball over her head trying to get him to sit for more than three seconds was quite the challenge. Sarah had helped us train him, and because we trained him in sign language (yeah, he’s kinda smart) she had no hands to tell him to wait. With his ball in one hand and the camera in the other, Lincoln did not understand why he had to sit and stay.

Donna standing there laughing/ yelling at him to sit, was minimal help. She claims Lincoln doesn't care about her. This is not true, like I said the dog is smart. He doesn’t have to give her a kiss, snuggle or pay attention to her to get food. She pretends to drop things on the floor, gives him scraps, leftovers you name it. Why would he show any affection or discipline if she doesn't ask for it. He gets what he wants without any effort.

As this 15 minute photoshoot was going on, Lincoln had taken Sarah out a good handfull of times, and lost his bow tie. Long story short we got A image for the cards and plenty of images ruined by my crazy lab.

As we keep checking things off the wedding list it is apparent wedding planning may not be as easy and stress free as I expected it to be, but we have to laugh our way through it. The good, the bad, and the ugly!

- Ash

Sacrifices....

Within the past week or so, I have REALLY tried to organize my ideas, inspirations and thoughts.  I can not stay on topic or even sit down for more than 10 minutes at a time. Imagine planning a wedding with a 5 year old drama queen who has ADHD. I often get sidetracked by the littlest things and blurt out whatever idea popped into my mind that second.

Donna, can not handle my disorganized mind and Sarah doesn't help it. We (Donna, Sarah and I) made a small step in the right direction. We organized what vendors we have and which vendors we still need. Lets just say, I have yet to make a dent in this list.

With the Holidays coming we are trying to get a chunk of the vendors booked before Thanksgiving (which is 14 days away). Team Lambert is really killing this wedding thing. We are over budget and behind schedule (typical). While we are trying to get into gear with the wedding, we(team Lambert) have managed to plan a baby shower for one of my best friends in two weeks. We booked a location, picked a menu, ordered custom invitations, decided on decor, and helped with the  registry.  We are able to make decisions for others but never ourselves. With so many options how do you know when to stop looking or know what vendor will execute exactly what we are looking for? I have mentioned this before, but its true. Price is a major factor with planning a wedding. YES, I am beyond lucky I have help from my parents and trust me I am forever grateful!  But that doesn't mean that we are not contributing. Matt and I have decent jobs and live comfortably, but we can’t come up with thousands of dollars within a day or two for a deposit on the flowers, photographer, or videographer. Its a difficult situation, and where do we cut back?

Our wedding day is a once in a lifetime event. We want to capture every moment, have photographs and videos to remember it with. But those memories come with a hefty price tag. We promised ourselves that we would not spend anything we didn’t have. I will not be paying back my wedding like I pay back Sallie Mae. That being said, do we give up capturing these moments to say within budget? The budget that we are already over, might I add. A videographer is something that I would love to have. Partially because I cry watching samples of other people’s stories/ weddings. The other because, 50 years from now I want to relive that night.

What do we do? How do we know what’s a good deal? When do we bite the bullet?  What do we sacrifice?

-Ash

 

 

“Tis far better to bite your tongue than your toes”

I may or may not be putting wedding planning on the back burner. Although we still have “plenty” of time, I realize(more than anyone) how quickly time will pass. Over the weekend I spent some Q.T. with my soon-to-be in laws where we started off antique hunting and veered off for wine and whiskey tasting on the eastern part of Long Island. Matt, was hard at work finishing his parents’ deck before the bitter barring Winter hits.

While chatting about wedding things, my soon to be sister-in-law blurted out “You better get your ass moving”  and you know what, she’s absolutely right!  I have all of these ideas and things I want to do in my head, but have yet to put them in action.


While we were in Long Island, I was given a book of articles Matt's grandmother wrote for her local newspaper in PA. This 86 year old firecracker is tech savvy, up to date with the latest Hollywood buzz, and will surely keep you on your toes!

While reading some of her articles I realized “life after retirement” and the “Senior Scene” have more similarities than you’d think. She writes about fighting for her husbands attention, because their cat gets it all which sounds familiar(thanks Lincoln).  How they dealt with new changes in their marriage, friendship, business, and a home. She touches on how to be a good Mother-in-law, how she tries to refrains from interfering with her daughter/son-in-laws choices. Although she may have to bite her tongue more than she wants to, she is determined to be a successful mother-in-law/ daughter-in-law. “Tis far better to bite your tongue than your toes”


This subject, although touchy at times, is something that we ALL will have to deal with. Marrying into a family you have certain expectations. Women are expected to cook, clean, and take care of their new husband just as their mother did. Diane, I love you more than you know, so when your son complains about his biweekly deadly disease that he has caught, from some foreign or non existent parasite, I'm sending him to you!  With all kidding aside, I am very lucky, my in laws welcome me with open arms. I truly feel comfortable telling them my honest opinion and I hope they feel the same

I have become more accepting to different traditions, foods and entertaining rituals. I (just like grandma) bite my tongue if needed and know when to put my opinion in or when I’m stepping on others toes. We have come up with great compromises for sharing holidays, visits, vacations, birthdays, and will continue to face situations, especially this year, where opinions  are likely to clash.


Although there is no manual for the “perfect” in-law I can wholeheartedly say I am lucky.

Diane, Matts beautiful mother, is the most caring person in the world. You can do no wrong in her eyes, she will help and take in any living being (human or animal). When Eminem's Marshall Mathers album came out she said “He just needs a mom, I’ll take him in”.

Alan, his father, has the same sick humor as Tiger and treats me like one of his daughters. Although I adore his entire family there is something special and different with our relationship. Yes, I am the lucky one in this situation, they get to deal with me! The bossy, loud, sloppy daughter-in-law. I take over Diane's kitchen, leave them with my dog, drink her wine, and sometimes, complain about her son. BUT, I will always cook a good meal! Matt has a wonderful, funny,  and witty family that I am lucky to be a part of. They have been dealt some crappy hands, but have shown us(me especially) that no matter what God throws at you, you can get through it together.

As a Daughter-in-law, you need to give the utmost respect to his parents, they raised him to be the person he is. REMEMBER, her son will always be her little boy, and you will NEVER replace his mom, or her pork chops.


-Ash

Don't Sweat The Small Stuff...

During this limbo period,  I have tried to organize vendors, information, referrals, and contacts as much as possible. It got me thinking… How do I know which vendor, boutique, dress, flower, colors etc. is right for our wedding?

 

Yes I have a SLIGHT advantage over most, after working in the bridal industry for about four years, you would think I would know all of the “right” vendors, have endless contacts and know exactly what I wanted…. Well I don’t.

 

Yes, I have made many contacts, I have seen endless amounts of dresses, flowers, linens, decor ideas, and photos. This has not made my decisions any easier. No matter what vendor you meet with, they will show you the best of the best, the most amazing arrangements, breath taking photos and miraculous decor. All of which will depend on your venue, budget and weather conditions (Ugh! trust me i'm asking Santa for a clear sky September 5th). I’ve learned that you can have anything you want, but it will cost you.

 

Making a decision on vendors usually comes from referrals, which are usually friends or family who have used their services in the past. It’s a decisions that you have to make on a gut feeling. They can show you the most perfect arrangement, you will fall in love with everything about it. You book the florist and dream about those flowers and that perfect color. But reality is, sometimes the flowers are unavailable that day/week at the wholesale market. The one shade of green isn't the same as that sample you saw months and months ago and it will not be at your wedding. It’s not one’s   fault, its just reality.  You can spent thousand and thousands on a florist who may not be able to produce that dreamt about bouquet. So choosing someone who gets your vision, someone who collaborates with your ideas, who YOU believe can be creative and innovative enough that you don't notice any last minute changes, or mistakes becomes a challenging task.

Although I do not live that far away from my venue site, I do find it difficult to schedule any meeting or tasting. I have tried to make all of these decisions without thinking about them too much. I can not over think any decision. If I were given too many options, I would NEVER make a decision. I have a hard enough time at the grocery store never mind a one-time life event.

 

Not all of my vendors have been chosen, and I am not sure when I will decide on the rest of them, but until it’s really crunch time, i'm going to do what feels right, hope for the best, and PRAY that they will execute my vision

 

When I was younger I danced (I was not the most graceful little girl nor could I remember the steps correctly) but my point is, no one knew. If something goes wrong on our wedding day no one other than Matt, and I (well maybe bridezilla, Donna, Sarah and a few other family members) will know. Make the best of out the situation, sweating the small stuff will take away from the bigger picture.

- Ash

WAIT... Am I An Adult?

As I embark on this journey, I've been thinking a lot about what could make me nervous, what will change, and if my life will be any different after the wedding.

This weekend I was lucky enough to attend one of the most beautiful, joyful and fun bridal showers.  Many of my college friends are married, engaged, or are in serious relationships.

While speaking about this exciting time in our lives, we discussed how crazy it was that we met 5+ years ago. It was like yesterday that we were freshman moving into Woodland, moving out of our parent’s homes for the first time, no mom or dad to get you to class, no one to cook you dinner, and no one to do your laundry because we were on our own! That year was one of the best years of my life. I met some amazing people, learned a lot about myself, and laughed uncontrollably. Where did the time go?

5ish years later, we all live on our own, pay bills, student loans, have full time careers, and are wedding planning.

Does this mean we are adults?

 

During this conversation a college friend (who got married earlier this month) said the only thing that had her nervous the day of her wedding was the reality of it. Were we old enough and mature enough to be married?

 

I remember being my sisters age looking up to my cousin(yeah you Linds), thinking how cool it was to be engaged, to get married,  and to buy a house. They must be so responsible and financially stable. I thought of her as an adult.

Does this mean my sister, cousins and their friends look at me that same way?

I may still be on a SMALL part of Tigers pay roll, but besides that, I pay for everything myself. That small part still keeps me a kid right?

I still try and sneak, and by sneak I mean drunkenly break into my sister’s room to sleep in her bed. She yells, kicks me off of her bed and tells me "go sleep with your husband". I wake up in the morning to, hear about my actions. ( this happened... last week)  Adults don't do that ( if I keep doing this I'll never be a fit adult). 

 

Although I have an  job, a dog, and a fiancé. I pay my bills (yeah, you too Sallie Mae),  have a car, and up keep my home. I do not feel like I am an  adult.

After thinking long and hard about this I have come up with a definition, the day that I am officially be an adult.... The day I DO NOT wake up at my parent’s house Christmas morning.

Really, think about it. The morning I do not wake up there will be the morning that I’ll be responsible for Santa. I'll be making my house, a home. I'll be making memories of my own, not being a part of someone else's. I will be responsible enough to be an adult. But until then Donna and Tiger have to keep my room, keep me on pay roll, and of course still treat me as their little girl. Married or not!
- Ash

....Lesson Learned

After struggling for a topic for this weeks WPW,  I reached out to the trustee social media platform, Facebook. Luckily, my family were the only ones to respond (thanks guys).
 

My Aunty Sue, who is the “crazy” aunt in our family(crazy in a good way), had a great idea that had me giggling just thinking about possible topics.

 I am no relationship expert and I will never claim to be. Matt and I love each other, DER... we are getting married. But that love does not come without struggles. Aunty Sue suggested that I blog about “Seven discussions to have with him before you marry”.

This had me thinking… while trying to keep ourselves entertained on our four + hour drive back from Boston(partly because I got us lost on the same drive I have done thousands of times), I remembered I “pinned” a game I saw. The game was  “100 things to ask him before you get married”.  Matt in the passengers seat with our lab laying across his legs like a shih tzu, picked through the 100 questions to only ask me the ones he thought would be funny. After about 5 minutes of him playing this game, it was done.
Even though I was unable to read or be asked all of the questions it got me thinking, who is really going to prepare you for marriage, and what are the things you NEED to know or have figured out before you are married?
 Matt and I have a unique relationship and we have lived together almost all of our relationship. So the living situation is not something we needed to talk about (nor was the cooking or house cleaning). Every relationship is different, but for us, I am the lucky one to have the job of being the house cleaner, laundromat, sandwich maker, and grocery shopper.  

I don't want to admit this, but when I first started dating Matt I told my mom how messy his room was and how he needed his laundry done. I told her I was going to have it all cleaned up and put away as a surprise when came home from work. She said “Ashley I wouldn't do that if I were you” GOD! Why didn't I just listen to her that ONE time. Well needless to say, nice deeds never go unpunished. Matt likes to say “You’ve created a monster”  UGH, he’s right.
Lesson number one; DO NOT do too much in the beginning, like a puppy they become trained to expect dinner at a certain time, want clean (put away) clothes, and groceries in the fridge.

Another heavy topic most couples struggle with are the holidays. We have been lucky enough to fall into a great pattern! At the moment we do not live close to either of our families, but split holidays well. Matts family, from day one, has been so amazing, supportive, and loving.  I look forward  to spending time with them just as I do with my own family.  Lesson number two; Make a plan, and make it even!

As for lesson number three; My poor In-Laws, they are two of the kindest, warm hearted people I have ever met. For them to put up with me after a long night, they are saints.  BE YOURSELF. As you all know I like to enjoy a drink or 5. Matt and I come home in a drunken stupor, play with the the dogs, and more likely than not, I'm demanded to make Matt a sandwich (his favorite food if you haven't caught on yet). I talk and talk and talk about absolutely nothing. They sit giving me their full attention, listening to whatever rambles out of my mouth. To then have me wake up hungover and talk about the same thing I was talking about last night(I have horrible memory). They know who I really am, how I “let loose” and how Matt and I interact. No front, no show, and no act.

Lesson number four is actually serious and something that has gotten Matt and I through a lot. You must be on the same page, want the same things, and want whats best for one another, no matter what. Whether its your lifestyle, religious beliefs, family, goals, work etc. Things will come across your lap at any time and if you don't have that support or willingness to share success with your partner it will be difficult to be happy for one another.

I definitely do not know all of the questions to ask before we marry but I do know what has KINDA worked for us for now.
If you have to question someone's past, don't know their middle name, favorite color, or realize that they will never admit that they put the ice try back empty, you have a lot to learn.

 - Ash

 

Proper Wedding Attire

As the end of wedding season approaches, it got me thinking... What is proper attire for a wedding? Does "black tie" mean anything anymore?

Lets take into consideration I tend to over dress for every occasion and if I could wear a tutu everyday I absolutely would! I have this pet peeve about people wearing black at weddings. Weddings are (and should be) the most joyous occasion in in your life. With the exception of people who have and want kids, you're attending a wedding to celebrate love and new life, not the end of one.

Cultures around the world use color to define different moments, emotions and beliefs. In Russia, red symbolizes beauty, while in South Africa it stands for mourning. Yellow in India is for farmers, and in Greece, sadness. Purple in the west stands for wealth and royalty, and in Brazil, death, and sorrow. Almost all over the world white stands for purity. In the USA black stands for death, unhappiness, anger, evil, and the devil. Anyway you catch my drift. I can honestly say I have not once, EVER, worn black to a wedding.Look, I get it, not many of us(myself included) have money to spend on a new outfit for every event. The "little black dress" is a necessity in every woman's closet, but is it really appropriate for a wedding?

I many not be Rachel Zoe, but I have done some styling in my day. Black is not necessarily the only color that's flattering and "hides" our unwanted soft spots.  Anything dark and solid, will accomplish the same look including navy, plum, grey, charcoal, Burgundy, etc. Many brides put their besties in black bridesmaids dresses for whatever reason. I have no problem with it, it's just not for me.

Black tie weddings are unfortunately a thing of the past.  We as Americans (or at least my family and friends),  do not have the lifestyle for a TRUE black tie wedding. As history has stated, black tie events were and are for the royals, the rich and the famous. Clothing customs for a black tie event are to be prête-à-porter (semi-custom clothing) each dress fitted to perfection, every suit finished with impeccable detail. From fascinators and millinery designs (hats ladies, hats) to hand dyed shoes. This art and creativity is lost, and with it the ability/accessibility for a real black tie event.

Many of us now write "black tie optional" on wedding invitations. Which, when you break it down many guests think it means; wear something better than the dress you wore to work last Thursday. And I'll take a bet that 2 out of 3 people wore a black dress. I see people at weddings who look like they rolled out of bed, or borrowed a dress from their little sister (2 -10 sizes too small). Dress your body ladies! Love who you are, no matter what size!  Cut the tags out if it makes you feel better(I've done it for more clients than you know) wear what fits! Your confidence is what make you beautiful.

Before Matt and I were even engaged, probably before we ever thought about it, I told my mom I would kick anyone who wore black to my wedding "It's not a funeral, it's a celebration". I mentioned that I wanted to put it on the invitation: "Black tie optional. And NO black".    

But she said I couldn't say that. So, now that the day has come and I'm trying to be the most easy going bride, I won't kick you out. But I will promise you I'll be wearing white at your funeral.  Jokes

-Ash

Let the Count Down Begin….

It's here….. The year count down. In 365 days (friday) the Lambert/Stambler festivities will happen! Its only taken us 4 different apartments, a move to NY, a dog, new jobs, vacations, tragedy, successes and laughter to get to where we are today. Wish us luck… this next year will be the biggest one of our lives thus far. 

Although many couples have(and will) plan weddings within a year, I wanted to take it slow, enjoy it, and do one thing at a time. Welp, it certainly doesn't feel that way anymore. 

For all of you brides and now MRS. out there, have you ever felt like you're at a stand still? Knowing you have a mile long list of things to do, but do not know when to start, or what order they should be in? How early is too early? And how late is too late? Well, this is my reality. 

I woke up recently in a frantic sweat. I had a dream that my wedding was a week away and I have nothing picked out. No dress, no flowers, didn't know what matt was going to wear, nor did I have my hair done(yeah dreamt that). This is obviously not reality but it scared me half to death. Thankfully, my bridesmaids reassured me that I was in a good place and that I had more done than the norm (or so they made me believe).

I wanted to take time to plan the weekend of events. My family and I wanted to show all of our guests the amazing area we grew up in, the water, and of course historic Salem! I may seem superficial, and materialistic, but when it comes down to my friends, family and entertaining, I would give the shirt off my back to make them happy. Just like our "engagement" party, it's not just about us. Its about our support system. I want our guests to feel like we made them apart go this wedding and that they know how much we appreciate them. Part of that will be pouring booze down their throats and making them eat massive amounts of food. But hey, we show our love in the kitchen. 

But REALLY, what now? What do i do next? What was the hardest part of planning your wedding and what would you have done differently?

- Ash 

Church, or not to Church?….

While vacationing with my lady friends over the weekend, we got into a conversation about marriage and what it really is. Why do people really get married? Is it Love? Citizenship? Health insurance? Money?

This electric crew differs in almost every way. But, it works. These ladies have been by my side through thick and thin and if it wasn’t for them, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I don't get to see them as often as I'd like, but when I do, I soak up every hysterical moment. Whether they know it or not, our friendship means more than anything. I respect these ladies, and would drop everything for them, even if we haven’t seen each other in months.

While sitting at the table chatting about this topic, I wanted to drink but more importantly, I wanted to hear what each of them truly thought about Marriage. Some believe it's only a piece of paper, a scary childhood memory, and others, true love. Growing up as a fair weather Roman Catholic, we were taught that marriage is a sacrament. A sacred gift you give to god. You marry to have children and live happily ever after. But, we all know that's not how fairy tales go.

If we break down marital statistics, 3 of us will get divorced and .75 of us will never marry.

Although ALL of us are in different stages in our lives, It was scary to think... that is reality.

As we close in on our 365 day countdown, Matt and I continue to struggle with our decision to get married in a church or not. Matt and I differ in many aspects, but not tradition. Matt is not your stereotypical Christian or suit and tie kinda guy. But, he does believe in family. If I let him, he would have a baby yesterday. He has been known to ask friends (or any women for that matter) if he could "use your oven". At least he tells them they have to give the child to me after it's born.

Anyway, the choice--to get married in a church or not? Yes, we did make our confirmations and we do believe in the basic Christian values. But do we really want someone who doesn't know us marrying us? If this day is about sharing your love with people who know you, why does this “random” get the honor of making us official husband and wife? This is one of the most important and special days of our life, why is the one person marrying you the only one who doesn't know you?

Back in the day, church was a social outing. More often than not, the priest who baptized you, married you. Unfortunately, Matt and I do not live this life style. We don't even live in the same state as the church. I struggle with this decision because, what if I regret it? What if I want to be married in the same church as my parents and grandparents? What if I want that attention and that amazing moment of our entire family and friends seeing me in a wedding gown for the first time (yeah, I like a bit of attention... So what, sue me).

I think back to the reason of why we are getting married. Unfortunately, we do not live within church "regulations". We can all be honest here, Matt and I live together and the church doesn’t necessarily condone that.

Last summer Matt and I were honored to go/be a part of one of the most beautiful weddings I have ever been to.  One part of their wedding I will never forget (probably because that’s the only time during the wedding I was sober) was their amazing ceremony! It was one of the most personal, honest, and true speeches I have ever heard. At that instant I thought, this is exactly what I want, someone who could speak to our past, share a story and express true honor and passion within every word. It was about them and their commitment to each other. I left their wedding thinking about their love, their commitment, and their personal touches that made that day one of the most memorable moments of my life. The fact that it was on Nantucket, didn’t hurt either.

 

Although our decision has yet to be made, it makes me think... What do we want? Tradition? Church? Personal? Or none of it at all?

-    Ash